Hair Dye or not too Hair dye, that is the question.

 Now to say that the grey hair that is slowly taking over my head is a sign of my age, well, it is kinda true. I have a lot of it. Some people call them silver strands, some people call them wisdom hairs (If that's the case, then I'm wise well beyond my years!) however you refer to them, there is a lot. And there are times when it does bother me. 

This plays into the whole "I'm an older mother" and the fears associated with this. Now, I have been dying my hair since I was a teenager. I have done every shade of red, brown, black, blonde, and dabbled in blues and Purple. My natural hair color (which I only remember when I look at photos pre hair dye) bored me when I was younger. It wasn't "hip" enough. The boys all had frosted tips and looked like members of the latest boy bands, the girls all favored Rachel from Friends, and the Goth kids all had bright neon streaks in their hair. 

I wanted to be different, but couldn't find my niche. 

Now, it's not about keeping up with trends or celebrities, it's about not embarrassing my daughter. I also have to remember that she is only 5 months old at this time, and doesn't care that I have grey hair, she loves me regardless. But it still bothers me.  

I have dyed my hair once since she was born, and she was at home to witness it, but she was only weeks old, and only knew the sound of my voice as she couldn't see past her nose. 

So, the question is, do I continue to dye my hair, hide my greys and try to keep up the appearance of being younger (as let's face it, that would be the big reason right now) OR, do I let the grey take over, consume my head and let her see the "real" me? could be a good teaching lesson for when she is old enough to understand....... and be embarrassed.

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